Getting fucked on the hood like a slut...

My slave gets intrigued when "risky" things are about to happen.
I like the look on his face when he gets blushed and his eyes look down on the floor both because of anxiety and frustration.

It was hot on Saturday evening and I was in a mood for taking slave for a ride.
So,I told him to put on a nice and sexy dress,the wig and the brand new sandals.
My gorgeous sissy was ready, I took My strap-on with Me and got into the car.

There are some isolated places near his house- however there are other houses around - and so, I chose one and parked the car.
The municipal lighting was high, but that didn't stop Me from putting on the strap-on , turn slave face on the hood and fuck him like a slut.
I spread his legs.
I put up his dress, and withdrew his string.
I layed lubricant on the strap-on and started fucking him.
I loved hearing him moaning on the hood and trying to latch onto the car!
We both enjoyed the "ride" and continued.

The sea is very close to slave's house and along the beach there are a few restaurants.
I drove all the way along these reastaurants, with the car windows down and many people around. A few of them were looking inside the car with a nosy look in there eyes while we were giggling.
We left the crowd behind us and I parked again by the sea.
We got out and walked for a while.
We both were excited for taking a "two women stroll" almost in public.
A cigarette in front of the soft waves and the moon above us, completed the ride.

A real cock for slave

It was a long time ago when I first told slave that I was determined to find a real cock for him one day.
He had a cool reaction replying that he was and always will be willing to do whatever I ask from him.
This decision of Mine is an extension of the absolut submission that I demand from him.
I also told him that, I might like that and make him My whore.
Again he replied that, he would obey to every order.

It wasn't difficult for Me to find a men who like sissies. Internet is full of adds.
I communicated with 3 men via msn and I finally chose one.
I explained to him exactly what I wanted and he agreed.
I also told him that there was one inviolable rule:
he had to meet Me first for approval. If I didn't like him for various reasons, he wouldn't meet slave.
He agreed with that too and we set an appointment.
That day slave had to go to My place,to wash My panties and clean the house.
I told him to wait for Me there after I finished work and then to go together to his home.

Indeed,after work I returned to My house and slave had already finished his chores.
It was then when I told him about what was about to happen:
- We must go to your home, we have a lot to do.
- Yes Ma'am, but what is it?
- Tonight, you are going to meet your first "client".
- ...i beg your pardon Ma'am?
- I said, that tonight,you are going to meet your first client Denise.
He blushed, he looked at Me with wonder and said with his eyes looking on the floor:
- As You wish Ma'am..but how did this happen..where did You find him...do You know him...?
- I found him in the internet Denise and, no, I don't know him but I'll meet him in two hours. We'll have a coffee together and if I like him, I'll bring him home.
- And what if You don't like him Ma'am?
- Then, I'll tell him so and he'll leave. It's a rule that i set and he agreed.
- Yes Ma'am, but, what is it that we have to do now?
- We'll go at your place and I'll prepare you for your date. I'll give you an enema, then you'll get a shower and then we'll find you clothes and lingerie to wear.

We arrived at slave's house, he sat and lighted a cigarette.He was constantly looking on the floor and he was muted.
I waited for a few minutes and then asked him to make Me a coffe.
He did so at once and sat again.
- Are you o.k Denise? Why are you so silent? Aren't you going to say a word today?
- Well...I don't know if i'm o.k Ma'am...and i realy have nothing to say...i'm a bit blocked. I'm just trying to get used to the idea of a man fucking me.
- Well,that's why I told you about it know and not 2 hours later. Because i want you to have the time to get used to it and prepare your self for it.
I finished My coffee and took him upstairs to give him an enema.
I finished with that and I then had a shower.
As soon as I had finished, the "client" called Me on My cellphone and we arranged the last details, exact hour and the place of our meeting.
Before I left home, I told slave to start getting himself ready.
Shower,shave and glaring.
If I approved of the client, I would send slave an sms that "we" were going home.

The man I met was decent.
We ordered coffee, he immediately paid for both and then started talking.
We talked a bit about his lifestyle and his job and then he asked Me a few details of what was it exactly that I wanted him to do to My slave.
I explained to him that he could use him as his whore, that he would indispensably use a condom, that I would be in the room watching them and taking photos and that he had to give slave a tip after he had finished.
He then asked:
- Do I have to give him a specific ammount of money?
- Oh no,no, what's important to Me, is for My slave to get over his phobia and inhibition and even more, to obey My orders. You can give him as much as you like.
I then sent slave an sms and told him that we were going home and to wait for Me upstairs.

I left the man in the living-room and went upstairs.
Slave was calmer than the previous hours and ready to get dressed.
I made his face up tenderly and put his feminine wig on.
He then put on a sexy lingerie set and we both went downstairs.
I presented them to each other and told slave to serve us drinks.
The man found Denise very attractive and sexy.
We all talked a bit in order for both men to feel comfortable with each other and then I told them that we should go upstairs.
Things moved on normally and I was very impressed with slave's behavior.
He was acting like a professional whore, who did her best in order to give pleasure to her client.
Later on, we went downstairs again, had one more drink, finished our chat and the man left.
Before leaving, he went close to slave and gave him money.
Slave was astonished but thanked him for that.

We led the man out and promised to meet again.
I then sat on the couch comfortably and slave kissed my feet saying:
- Ma'am, he gave me 20€..
- I know Denise, I told him that he had to give you some money. How did you feel?
- I felt like a whore Ma'am.
- Well, that's great because from now on, you are a whore, My whore.

My Cuckold slave

The more I dominate My slave, the more I demand from him.
I want to take his total submission.
No deals, no limits. Just obedience.
I didn't use to be like this and to be honest,in the past, I had inhibitions about many issues.
But not anymore. There's nothing that could keep Me back or create hesitations.
Even if it is something extreme like cuckolding.
It's amazing how satisfactory cuckolding is for a Mistress.
My first, a few days ago was a unique experience and an absolut act of Domination.
I communicated with an "x" lover of Mine and proposed to him a date.
Of course he accepted gamely.
The date was set for the evening of the same day.
Then I just announced it to My slave.
- Denise, I have a date tonight.
- A date...?may i ask with whom Ma'am?
- With My lover Denise.
- ...As You wish Ma'am...
His eyes became red and a little wet and his face flushed. He sat on a chair and lighted a cigarette.
I looked him deep in the eyes and asked:
- Are you o.k?
- Yes, yes Ma'am i'm o.k..is just that...i was taken aback. You hadn't mention to me this intension of Yours.
- Well, I just did Denise.
- Yes, of course Ma'am.
- Listen to Me carefully Denise. You must know that, I don't tend to have a dialogue with you every time I decide to do something. I will just tell you so.
- Yes of course Ma'am, You are right.
- Good. Now listen what I want you to do: My date is at 20.00 at My house. After that, I'll come to your house at 21.30. I want you to wait there for Me, wearing feminine lingerie.
- Yes Ma'am, of course. Is there something else You would like Me to do for You?
- No, not for now.

I had a great time with My lover.I even took some photos of Me having sex with him. I absolutely enjoyed it and it felt good to know that slave was at home chastised, knowing that I was having sex with another man and waiting for Me.
At 21.30 sharp I was at slave's home.
He opened the door for Me, went down on his knees and kissed My feet.
- Did you have a good time Ma'am?
- I had a great time Denise. I absolutely enjoyed it. Here, look, I took some photos...
He looked at them carefully and he calmly said:
- Nice Ma'am. If You had a great time, i'm pleased too. Only your satisfaction counts for me. And really, i feel o.k. I thought i'd be shocked with the photos but i'm not.You are my Mistress and i'm Your slave. All i have to do, is obey.
- Fine Denise. Now come down here and lick My pussy because My lover ejaculated inside Me and I want you to clean all of his cum.
He immediately did as he was told, he then kissed My feet and hands and served Me a glass of red wine.

A Reminder for the slave

Having a slave, isn't just about asking and taking things.
It is also about training him.
My opinion is that, there is always a reason for keeping the slave under training.
Not necessarily because he gets "disconnected" but because every now and then, something new occurs and his Mistress has to teach him things.
The best way for a Mistress to achieve this, is talk with him, explain to him the way that She wants things to be done and obviously punish him if he acts otherwise.
However, during a twenty-four hours day, for obvious reasons, a Mistress can't totally control Her slave and be sure that he is "on".
So there must be a way for this to happen.
Slave must not forget not even for a single momement who he is.
Having in mind that slave works, there are no many alternatives for having him both mentally and physically "on".
A collar would be great, but everyone could see it!
A tattoo is fine but he can't feel it or see it under his clothes.
A feminine underwear is ok too but he might like it.
The important is,that the slave must not feel total comfort and something "tickles" him for as long as he is at work.
A butt-plug is the best way to remind him of his position.
That's why I bought two butt-plugs for My slave to wear them at work.
A crystal one and a metal one.
Yesterday was his first day wearing the crystal one for more than 8 hours.
No problem occured, he felt no pain but his body and mind were focused on the correct set for hours.
That's the concept:
A Mistress must keep Her slave's body and mind constantly "penetrated".

How D/s Can Be Destroyed

The motive for this post, was the comment of a reader on My post:
"Destruction and Renaissance"
His comment is the following:

Please, do tell me what was wrong. Your description very much applies to our case : trials of all sorts, ups and downs, with a sort of cloud permanently above.

Thank you,

Alex & Ann

There's so much I have to say about it!
There are days when Me and slave still analyze the reasons why the D/s we had the first time,not only failed, but also destroyed our lives and our relationship.
We were both mishandling things wrong.
The reason was that we were very much in love with each other and had so much intimacy and as a result, we were continually blocking ourselves from "diving" into the D/s really and thus, we were returning to "vanilla".

Finally, what was happening on and on was that, slave couldn't submit to Me and that made Me feel that I didn't have the power to dominate him.
Thus, I was constinually questioning his submissive tendensies and he was continually questioning Me as a Mistress.
That's bitter you know and it hearts a lot.

I don't know how easy it is for someone to understand it, but what all of you have to have in mind is that:
in the D/s the more submissive a man is, the more dominant a Woman gets and vise versa.
The order of this precondition is significant. Subs have to prove their submission firstly in order to be correctly dominated.
If things don't happen this way, then nothing works.

Another thing that is very important is that:
Once a couple acquaints and likes the D/s, there's no reversion. It's a one-way lifestyle and it's absolutely imposible for them to be satisfied again with the "vanilla".

Another thing is that, because of the fact that, usually the man is the one who introduces the D/s to the Woman and as a result She starts to feel powerful, trustworthy and almost a Goddess, the disappointment She gets when things change and the man tries to "top from the bottom", is fatal.
She starts to think that the whole thing is fake, that Her sub is not a sub at all, that he plays with Her for his own satisfaction and pleasure, that he perhaps is just kinky and and that She is an inadequate Mistress.
The only result that occurs is, GRIEF.

I'll give you a few examples of what was happening was causing negative feelings to both of us.

We had agreed that we both loved the D/s and we wanted to move deeper and deeper.
BUT, My "x" sub and now slave, was so impatient to move on that was making Me feel useless. He wasn't doing it always on purpose but he was!
He often was drifting enough from the internet and the various stories he was reading and in his mind he had a different view about "how a Mistress should be".
He was often argueing with Me for various issues on the D/s, he always wanted to express his opinion and he would never shut his mouth up.
He often was trying to top from the bottom especially when there was a disagreement between us.
He was almost always trying to avoid houschores and commands I was giving him.
So, there was a continual struggle on My part to put him in line.

Most of the times, I was so disappointed that I didn't even have the courage to deal with it.
That's My number one mistake: I was allowing him to manipulate Me.
Another mistake: I was very flexible with him while I should be absolutely strict.
Another major mistake: I was pliable.
The most important clue that had to do with both of us was that, we were both scared of the thought that if we insisted on the D/s issue we might fuck up our relationship.
And we did!
The difference is that we didn't fuck up our relationship because of the D/s, but because of the lack of D/s.

All the above show a simple thing: that our vanilla behaviours were entering all the time into the D/s.
The answer is: "WHY?" and I wouldn't be able to answer to you if we hadn't broken up.
Only after we broke up and lived separetely, we both realized our mistakes.
Everything we tried, wouldn't make any difference.
We didn't like anything.
We didn't have fun anymore.
We didn't want to do things.
We didn't want to travel.
We didn't want to make love.
We weren't happy.
Finally, we both got dipressed.
We were struggling with these feelings for 2 years.
We just couldn't find out what had happened and we "lost" each other.
The whole thing was absolutely painful.
We discussed hundreds of times trying to figure out what was wrong with us.
Why we loved so much each other but yet we weren't happy together?
We didn't find it. That's the reason why i deceided to leave.
I left home, I left the Love of My life, I left enerything precious I ever had.
Believe Me, that was the most painful and couragous move I've ever done in My life.
But I knew - and I was right - that it was the only way to clear things out.
We realized that the failure of the attempt to have a real, stable and absolut D/s, was so fatal and frustrating for both of us, that slowly and infernaly was creating negative feelings to each other.
We also realized - although we already knew this- that we loved so much each other and that was the reason that made us think and analyze our 5 1/2 years relation.
We could see us clearer now that we weren't together.
We could judge ourselves objectively.
We had nothing to lose anymore. We both lost the most precious thing we had in ourlives: each other.
While separetely, we were making the same thoughts.
And then one day came after months, when the timing of having come to the same conclusion, was amazing.
I knew exactly what I wanted and slave knew exactly who he was.
We arranged a contact and talked.
Things moved on so smoothly and natural, as if we had done this before.
Slave begged Me to accept him as a lifetime slave, while Me on the other side,I told him how different i was and what I wanted from him: absolut submission.
I deceided and then set the rules.
-What men should know is that: submission is not a part-time lifestyle. Submission is a strong feeling and a lifetime belief.
-What Women should know is that: Dominating a man is power which grows stronger and stronger everyday and which doesn't allow flexibility.

The D/s, is an absolut lifestyle and there's no room for mediocrity.

All the rest, is details in which I don't want to refair to right now.
However, I will soon, because I believe that there are many other couples that have the same struggles and trials we had in the past.

Feedback about slave's chastity

Ok, here we go again with a new problem:
This chastity doesn't work either!
As you already know, we modified the "birdlock" chastiy device.
For the first five days, things were perfect.
But on the sixth day, a problem occured.
Slave's penis got swollen.
We thought that it happened because of the frequent erections he has.
The erections caused the swollen and as a result, the chastity pressed the penis in such a degree that it was becoming melanic and it heart a lot.
We removed the chastity for a day and things got better.
When he put it on again, a few hours later his penis got swollen once again.
What was different this time was that, the irritation had began from his P.A spot.
We assumed that the hole we had opened for the P.A padlock was small and thus, his piercing was getting irritated.
So, we made the hole bigger.
Things were ok for one day. Then his penis got swollen again.
Maybe, the problem has to do with his erections which he obviously can't avoid or control.
The result, once again remains the same:
One more chastity was proved to be useless!
We were wondering last night, how can it be possible, all the chastities he's tried to be useless for him and on the other side, all the feedbacks we've read from others in varius sites about all the same chastities with ours, to be encouraging and positive!
There are two issues here: Either we are so unlucky or they are liars.
Anyway, there is one last thing we are going to do:
Slave will have one more piercing, a Scrotum.
He already has a P.A.
Having these two piercing, he'll be securely locked.
One P.A padlock and one Scrotum padlock, both of them locked to each other.
Obviously it's the only way for a slave to be locked, since all of the "famous and secure chastities" we all know so far, are a deceit!
Since i've always been sincere with you, i'll keep you informed for the progress of our new plan.

A New Chastity Under Construction

My slave discovered a new site a few months ago.
It belongs to a submissive guy who's been trying - like we did - to find the most secure chastity for him.
After having been disappointed many times - like we did - he decided to make a secure chastity himself.
I guess the guy has an engineering knowledge or something like that and that makes me trust him.
Besides, everyone who will visit the site, will realize that the guy is absolutely serious with what he's decided to do.
For all the Dominant Ladies who haven't yet find a secure device to lock their sub's "bird", it's a must to visit this site.
www.chastitywear.com